Dad, I love you so much.  I can’t imagine that at one point in time you held me in your arms like I held Ben.  I had NO idea of the kind of love that you have for me until that moment.  It’s amazing.  You have been an amazing father.  Live is worth living. To [...]

To Pastor Brian, The way you loved Pam and I through this is unspeakable.  Your words still bring life to me.  Thank you for saying Ben’s name over and over again in your message.  Thank you for loving our son. To everyone reading this, Please read this slowly, it’s just amazing… and full of hope. [...]

Pam and I woke up Monday morning in a fog. We picked our clothes out in that fog. We got dressed in that fog. And we waited for Pam’s best friend to pick us up in that fog. I’ve read from multiple people in multiple books that none of us knows how to face death [...]

Sunday night, the day before Ben’s funeral Pam and I were so twisted inside.  I remember telling Pam that I had this feeling of excitement mixed with nausea thinking of getting to see Ben one more time. The funeral director also goes to our church.  His name is Larry.  He was amazing to us.  He [...]

After I finished created Ben’s CD that night with Pam, I didn’t know that Pam began to quietly panic about what she was going to do or give to Ben.  Here I made this CD for him to hand out at the funeral and she couldn’t think of one thing to do. A toy from [...]